watch and think!

4/9/2009
Went to uncle Tay son's 21st birthday party!Happy birthday may all of your wishes come true!^^ Uncle Tay was a bit drunk and he said all kinds of funny things which makes me laugh.He said how important the wife is and he is scared to lose this wife.He still said that he is lucky to have this wife.It touches me!(= Well,have a great night there listening to them!

5/9/2009
Went out with my parents,shop at orchard then went to queenstown.Daddy brought his shoe that he always wanted,finally he decided to get it.Daddy don't always spend on us do spend some money on what you want too!it's your hard earn money after all!Dad fetch me to Melvin house then stay there for about 15mins then went off to watch 'The Proposal' the show that me and my sister wanted to catch long ago!Finally,we did it!The movie was entertaining,enjoyable,loving and touching!I LOVE THIS SHOW!Andrew is handsome!XP
Melvin send us home.On the way i have some question that pop up in my mind which is:
Am i a good person?? No,I'm not a good person!
Am i a unreasonable person? Yes you are one!
I have attitude problem! Ya,all along!
Am i naughty? Ya,at times!
still have lots of question that i have been asking myself well seriously i feel that I'm a sucky person yet i love myself so so much!Okay i don't know what is wrong with me!

7/9/209
Went out with J.S.H
went to play bowling was really fun there!!!hahaha..
Went to time zone at yishun enjoying it too.
Went to the mac and joke and laughter!
WEEEE,really thank you for everything,i enjoy the day of that!
thank you!

TODAY 8.9.2009
Went to Tekong for my idiot pass out.Nice but it's was a waste of time waiting for him!!!!Was piss off as i don't have patience was at least waiting for him for 2 hour plus!!Very hungry!!!Went to Paris and went Rosemary lamb chop!Wow,it's yummy!!I'm loving it!
Home sweet home....
open mailbox saw the PPR2!shit!
Open mum ask me to show dad!Knew i would get scolded,but i quickly went to my room.escape from it.!
After doing my e-learning math went to ask mummy to sign my ppr2 in case i lost it.Mummy insist to let daddy sign =.= went to dad room show him once again!Got scolded,was really piss off!**** what i did is still a blank piece of paper right my dear daddy and mummy? Seriously because of you guys,i really want to give up my studies but i can't.i won't have any future but your words really make me give up.The way you talk,i don't know what i did is always not enough,not good enough.But I'm putting my efforts did you guys see it? yes?no? or maybe you forgot? i don't need you to praise me.i just need you to understand me well enough.you are adding stress to me just by a few words.I want to reach your expectations but sometimes i just can't.Well,i know I'm bless and lucky to have you caring about while some people doesn't have.But seriously i really wish,wish that you could see my effort and how serious i am now finding path for my future and be proud of myself.I will prove myself to you!
i know I'm rebellion sometimes yet i think is a good thing!**

What is gone is it really gone??
What i have is it a past tense?or it will be forever?
Have you really given up on him?have you?
And have you forget us?
Have all of you remembered how happy we was when we're tgt as one?
Have the circle become smaller and become a odd number rather then a even number?
Has everything really changes because of this?
i don't wish things changes.but in fact it really change.Less talking,less asking,less communication,less concern and caring.
And in fact for you,less talking,hack care,only 1 person in your mind,less interaction with me.
i wish to get all of this back,i wish we would stay strong i wish you never give up,i wish you could understand them i wish i wish.Hope this could be back asap and treating it as nothing happened.After all we're one big .....sometimes i actually find my life meaningless,i hate my life i don't want to be a human but there's no choice right.
Sometimes i find my life is filled with colours while life is full of up and down maybe this is called life that everyone have to experince!

Idoit is going thailand tml,takecare!


I really wish!goodnight!